I apologize to everyone for all the long long years of my absence. There has been a lot happening in my life that kept me from being in an artistic mood, being inspired, and overall lacking the will to share anything about myself, my art and my life due to these changes.
Over the years I lost friends to new states, colleges, and even partners. I went through social anxiety and depression, lost my best friend through it to another state and then she stopped communicating with me as she herself fell into a depression. My art and drawing and exploring my artistic expression disappeared. Depression is a killer and it kills your passion. Art and design, sewing, being creative completely withered from my life while i suffered some of the hardest days of my life.
Though there have been bad things, there are good things that come from this. I found myself again in ball joint dolls and my drawing and art blossomed again with inspiration. Rather than being a victim of depression and anxiety I fought to get better. I went through a rough long year of therapy with an amazing therapist and got on meds to help balance the chemical issues I had. I got an amazing job where I easily was promoted within to supervisor of graphic design and production of a small starter company which is doing really well. I met a wonderful man through my subtle roleplay adventures into Second Life. This turned out to be the man that came to Colorado from North Carolina and started a new life with me. He promised to marry me... and on my birthday Oct. 17 he went down on one knee and presented a ring in front of my family and people at Jared to fulfill this promise to marry me. We are still struggling in life despite both living with family, but we are happy and very much in love.
This comes to the next part... I am officially coming back to DA. I have long since missed sharing my art, and my expressions with anyone and everyone whoever be the person who loves what I do or just being a fan of me in general. This place... Deviant Art... proved to be a huge part of my life. I realized how much I missed it. Depression took my expression away from me, and I am going to do my very best to bring it back to life.
First and foremost, I apologize to all the people who have come and gone in this group, have been left confused and had no idea what was going on. I promise to properly control this group as it should be and make sure everyone is happy how things go etc.ect....
Enough of my rambling! I hope to see more action in here now that I am back. I will think of new ways to getting people active again, but for now I am just going to throw out love and hugs!
Co Founder - Jamiesama <3